Ever-present Light

Light

Sunrise on April 1, 2015 on Sandy Beach

We live in a world full of illusions, which if taken too seriously, contribute to suffering and the forgetting of knowledge that comes naturally. One such illusion is the idea that the sun goes down and rises up again each day. Many believe that the sun is actually going down and “taking a break” for the night hours until the morning. This is an illusion. The sun knows no such thing as a “break,” it is always shining brightly regardless of what’s going on in our atmosphere or where we are as we orbit around it. No matter what, the sun shines.

In moments when we forget the sun is always shining, we believe we are alone, left to suffer. We even begin to believe the sun has abandoned us altogether. We personalize its decision to leave and lose hope on our journey, choosing to merely exist instead of enjoying our lives. But the reality is that the sun is shining, it is always shining. The light is here, now. And even though most of us know the appearance of the sun rising and setting is an illusion, we tend to forget the illusions related to other matters. The truth is, we have the ability to stop getting trapped in illusions and allowing them to dictate our quality of life. We can choose to play in the illusions, which is actually quite enjoyable or simply recognize them for what they are and continue to enjoy our lives while having a deep knowing of what is true.

Intentions and Behaviors

Turtle Bay is one of the spots we love to visit.

Turtle Bay is one of the spots my love and I enjoy visiting.

How often do we look to see whether our behaviors are in alignment with our intentions? Although I used to say that my relationship with my partner was my number one priority, energetically and behaviorally, my priority was work and my business. More often than not, I allowed work to consume the majority of my time and energy throughout each day. I would even allow work to be the dominating topic during conversations with my partner, until one day I realized, it simply didn’t feel good nor did it make sense. If I’m claiming that my relationship with my partner is my number one priority, then why was so little of my energy going to our relationship?

I was out of alignment. My intention was to make my relationship number one but that intention did not find its way down to my behaviors, at least not until things began to feel bad. And that’s how it sometimes goes with us humans, it’s not until we suffer that we really start to become conscious of what’s going on, which is why I believe, pain is a gift. The pain led me to wake up and see the disconnect between my intention and behaviors. Once I became aware and was able to feel the consequences of my choices, I was then able to truly make my relationship a priority in my life.

The truth is intention is not enough, our actions must match. Many times, we do not realize that we’re saying one thing but doing another. Fortunately, I no longer take for granted my partner’s loving and patient attitude, and I recognize that it is my responsibility to walk my talk.

Mahalo for reading! May you experience infinite peace and blessings!

Play

“Life is not a business, it is a play. And a play has no purpose really, it is non-purposeful. Or you can say play is its own purpose, to play is enough. Life is not reaching towards some goal, life itself is the goal. It is not evolving towards some ultimate; this very moment, here and now, life is ultimate.” -Osho

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My grandmother used to tell me “stop being so serious, just be a child,” whenever my mind would find some worrisome topic to bug her about. At the time, I didn’t take her advice because I considered myself to be “mature” and playing seemed less important than asking questions. Now, I find her advice to be one of the most profound ever given.

Lately, I have been feeling much more playful, upon “remembering” that all is well. Underneath the veil of what we “see” lies a perfect peace that is always here and now. Not only that, it becomes simultaneously humbling and comical when we realize that we really don’t know that much at all, let alone where we actually are in the grand scheme of the Universe.  This realization has helped me to lighten up a great deal and stop carrying the burden of “seeking” and trying to figure things out. How liberating it is to just enjoy “this” as it is. With a playful disposition, I find that I am more engaged, grateful, and loving, and that’s definitely something to smile about! Cheers!

Mahalo for reading! May you experience infinite peace and blessings!

 

Brought from Within

“The only Zen you find on tops of mountains is the Zen you bring there.” -Robert Pirsig
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Kapolei, HI (9/23/13)

Perhaps the most common journey people embark on is the quest for happiness. We will go to the corners of the earth for happiness. We will take trips to India, move to Hawai’i, and go on retreats in search for happiness. We also make sudden lifestyle changes believing we will be happier once we reach a certain goal. We genuinely believe that going to one of the aforementioned destinations or making an external change will bring us the happiness we desire.

Admittedly, I fell for the happiness trap as well. I believed that moving to Hawai’i would bring me more happiness. Even though I read many books that reminded me that happiness is not something that is acquired from external circumstances, I still believed Hawai’i would enhance my levels of happiness. I mean Hawai’i is paradise, so of course, right? 😉

Well, not quite. While being in Hawai’i has been the best experience I’ve ever had in my life, Hawai’i in and of itself is not what brings me happiness. Moving to Hawai’i gave me an intense rush of excitement that slowly trailed off over time. However, the genuine happiness and Zen that I feel in this moment is what I bring to Hawai’i from within myself. I shared with a friend that I am the most joyful I have ever been in my life but it is not because I live in Hawai’i. It’s because I am at peace with myself and at peace with life.

Happiness can be found wherever you are, right now, because it is a feeling that emanates from within us when we are peaceful with all that is. A dear friend once said “if a person is not happy here, they will not be happy there either.” I find her comment to be the truth. The quest for happiness is not an external one, it is entirely internal. Search no more my friends, happiness, peace, and Zen, are all brought by us not brought to us.

Mahalo for reading! Wishing you all infinite peace!

Love always,

Candace